Testimony of Light 14

14 April 1966

I can use my 'inner mind' so much more now. On earth it was difficult to 'break through' to Spirit for long enough periods to be lasting in effect. I tried, by meditation, and I did succeed in stilling the conscious mind, but I did not then achieve a measure of living in the Spiritual Mind, as I am now able to do. Yes, I still have several 'parts' or 'bodies,' and I marvel more as I recognise them. The 'purely personal' part of me is being cleansed and purified. I live mostly now in an astral body and that gives a measure of greater freedom than a dense physical body, but I am very aware of my Higher Body, or if you wish, my inner Self, much more aware of it than when in incarnation in the physical plane of matter. I am now learning, and achieving I trust, a higher balance of living. By this I mean that I am becoming aware of my Spiritual Body and in so doing I am enabled to absent myself from this plane of thought, the astral or emotional, and slip away in consciousness to the higher Mental and Spiritual planes of thought.

With the transition from this consciousness to that of the Higher, comes an exquisite sense of peace and freedom such as I can scarcely explain.

I cannot hope even to transmit the enveloping peace, the sense of tranquil being that envelops one with this transition of consciousness. It is the break-through for which I longed when on earth, and which I only experienced in infinitesimal moments of union. It is the Reality of Being. It is joy beyond words. It is in truth an ecstasy of living, of being a live, alert Self in a world of live and Glorious Selves within a consciousness of a Great Creative Self. I cannot express this feeling of Inner Spirit more clearly. And I must add that I am but a tyro yet in achieving even this measure of consciousness. Neither can I hold it indefinitely at my present stage of evolution. Perhaps the intensity of it would, so to speak, burn me up until I am attuned to this stepped-up frequency of vibration. It is intense joy, unqualified bliss, the aim and acme of all the struggles to discover the Spirit, and still only can I achieve it in 'periods' of consciousness. Yet I can be content as I become more fully alert to the possibilities of the Higher Planes.