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29 October 2026

How can I learn to speak kindly?

People may commit what is called an unspeakably deadly sin on your plane because of great unselfish love, one to the other. 

Well, they will have to bear the consequences of the wrongdoing, but the absorbing affection the one had for the other will go a long way towards shortening the discipline.

The same with many other acts, which do not stand so much in the limelight of public opinion.

Not many sins are committed from absolutely unworthy motives, there is generally a spark of affection for some other person mixed up with it. 

All this talk about the horrible wickedness of sin is true to a certain extent, but the righteous Pharisee is very apt to confuse the sin and the sinner, and to refuse to distinguish between the two.

When our Master was last on the earth, one of the most important commands He gave to the people was this, Judge not, that meant because they could not know all the circumstances that led a person to commit some unworthy act, and would, therefore, be incapable of giving a fair opinion.

There is much of that kind of judging on the earth, only it is called criticism, a milder expression of the same thing.

All of you must learn to appreciate the real meaning of the word charity. You do not know how much the spoken thought can influence another person, or what harm or good it may, and can do. But we know it here, and the message for you today is to learn to think and speak kindly of others. 

If they cannot speak kindly, at least, let them be silent. This is an important message, and one that is very badly needed.

―The Witness

Do some seem evil?

THE GREAT, UNIVERSAL KARMA

Unconscious of their agency, or of how, with others equally great, Mol Lang was influencing the affairs of men—these men on earth went on with their doings, fondly thinking that themselves were doing all. 

How little humanity on earth knows that it is thus guided. 

Yet our Father gives it to His occult children to lead their lesser brethren, just as He gave it to Jesus, one of the Sons of Light, higher than any other, Who was an incarnation of the Christ. Perhaps human acts were not, are not, guided individually, as a rule, although exceptions exist. But just as shot, running in grooves, is checked by the leaden pellets before and behind, so the acts of one man depend on the acts of others—these on others still until finally it appears that the mass is influenced in the whole, and every individual in the mass has his or her acts unconsciously controlled by what are termed circumstances, fates, adverse or propitious, inexorable, the grooves in which they run. 

That is to say, humanity is ordered in its action by what may be named the Universal Karma. 

So long as men grope in the dark, ignorant of occult laws, so long must they produce this inexorable karma. 

It is fate, self-made, running from life to life, incarnation after incarnation, unavoidable, for it is born of the infraction of the laws of the Creator.

The great religious movements, wars, and the fields of commerce all furnish experiences for mankind. 

Do some seem cruel, evil? 

Yet each is a part of the scheme of the Creator—each is a tool in the hands of His ministers, and all teach that except a man, as part of the Eternal Whole, works for that Whole, subduing the selfish animal in himself, he can in no wise come to the Father.

Except by My Path says the Saviour.

—Phylos the Thibetan

A watercolor painter working in Dolceacqua (Liguria, Italy)—Dongio

What then must time itself be worth?

If you would but understand that time is your most precious gift, a grace of heavenly fullness, and that all the treasures of the East can never make up for a day wasted, for an hour lost! 

And if a single hour may be so rich in blessing, what then must time itself be worth, lying before you as a shoreless ocean? 

But the entire blessedness of the gift will come to the believing heart only in the kingdom to come, where love rules, which made the time.


This is your blueprint for abundance?

Only give—This is your blueprint for abundance.

Neuraminidase Ribbon Diagram - NASA

Abundance Blueprint?

Only give—This is your blueprint for abundance.

Neuraminidase Ribbon Diagram - NASA

How to live your life with gratitude?

Only give, this is your blueprint for abundance.

Neuraminidase Ribbon Diagram - NASA

Illusion of Free Will?

THE GREAT, UNIVERSAL KARMA

Unconscious of their agency, or of how, with others equally great, Mol Lang was influencing the affairs of men—these men on earth went on with their doings, fondly thinking that themselves were doing all. 

How little humanity on earth knows that it is thus guided. 

Yet our Father gives it to His occult children to lead their lesser brethren, just as He gave it to Jesus, one of the Sons of Light, higher than any other, Who was an incarnation of the Christ. Perhaps human acts were not, are not, guided individually, as a rule, although exceptions exist. But just as shot, running in grooves, is checked by the leaden pellets before and behind, so the acts of one man depend on the acts of others—these on others still until finally it appears that the mass is influenced in the whole, and every individual in the mass has his or her acts unconsciously controlled by what are termed circumstances, fates, adverse or propitious, inexorable, the grooves in which they run. 

That is to say, humanity is ordered in its action by what may be named the Universal Karma. 

So long as men grope in the dark, ignorant of occult laws, so long must they produce this inexorable karma. 

It is fate, self-made, running from life to life, incarnation after incarnation, unavoidable, for it is born of the infraction of the laws of the Creator.

The great religious movements, wars, and the fields of commerce all furnish experiences for mankind. 

Do some seem cruel, evil? 

Yet each is a part of the scheme of the Creator—each is a tool in the hands of His ministers, and all teach that except a man, as part of the Eternal Whole, works for that Whole, subduing the selfish animal in himself, he can in no wise come to the Father.

Except by My Path says the Saviour.

—Phylos the Thibetan

A watercolor painter working in Dolceacqua (Liguria, Italy)—Dongio

Groove Metaphor?

THE GREAT, UNIVERSAL KARMA

Unconscious of their agency, or of how, with others equally great, Mol Lang was influencing the affairs of men—these men on earth went on with their doings, fondly thinking that themselves were doing all. 

How little humanity on earth knows that it is thus guided. 

Yet our Father gives it to His occult children to lead their lesser brethren, just as He gave it to Jesus, one of the Sons of Light, higher than any other, Who was an incarnation of the Christ. Perhaps human acts were not, are not, guided individually, as a rule, although exceptions exist. But just as shot, running in grooves, is checked by the leaden pellets before and behind, so the acts of one man depend on the acts of others—these on others still until finally it appears that the mass is influenced in the whole, and every individual in the mass has his or her acts unconsciously controlled by what are termed circumstances, fates, adverse or propitious, inexorable, the grooves in which they run. 

That is to say, humanity is ordered in its action by what may be named the Universal Karma. 

So long as men grope in the dark, ignorant of occult laws, so long must they produce this inexorable karma. 

It is fate, self-made, running from life to life, incarnation after incarnation, unavoidable, for it is born of the infraction of the laws of the Creator.

The great religious movements, wars, and the fields of commerce all furnish experiences for mankind. 

Do some seem cruel, evil? 

Yet each is a part of the scheme of the Creator—each is a tool in the hands of His ministers, and all teach that except a man, as part of the Eternal Whole, works for that Whole, subduing the selfish animal in himself, he can in no wise come to the Father.

Except by My Path says the Saviour.

—Phylos the Thibetan

A watercolor painter working in Dolceacqua (Liguria, Italy)—Dongio

What is Universal Karma?

THE GREAT, UNIVERSAL KARMA

Unconscious of their agency, or of how, with others equally great, Mol Lang was influencing the affairs of men—these men on earth went on with their doings, fondly thinking that themselves were doing all. 

How little humanity on earth knows that it is thus guided. 

Yet our Father gives it to His occult children to lead their lesser brethren, just as He gave it to Jesus, one of the Sons of Light, higher than any other, Who was an incarnation of the Christ. Perhaps human acts were not, are not, guided individually, as a rule, although exceptions exist. But just as shot, running in grooves, is checked by the leaden pellets before and behind, so the acts of one man depend on the acts of others—these on others still until finally it appears that the mass is influenced in the whole, and every individual in the mass has his or her acts unconsciously controlled by what are termed circumstances, fates, adverse or propitious, inexorable, the grooves in which they run. 

That is to say, humanity is ordered in its action by what may be named the Universal Karma. 

So long as men grope in the dark, ignorant of occult laws, so long must they produce this inexorable karma. 

It is fate, self-made, running from life to life, incarnation after incarnation, unavoidable, for it is born of the infraction of the laws of the Creator.

The great religious movements, wars, and the fields of commerce all furnish experiences for mankind. 

Do some seem cruel, evil? 

Yet each is a part of the scheme of the Creator—each is a tool in the hands of His ministers, and all teach that except a man, as part of the Eternal Whole, works for that Whole, subduing the selfish animal in himself, he can in no wise come to the Father.

Except by My Path says the Saviour.

—Phylos the Thibetan

A watercolor painter working in Dolceacqua (Liguria, Italy)—Dongio

What is your most precious gift?

If you would but understand that time is your most precious gift, a grace of heavenly fullness, and that all the treasures of the East can never make up for a day wasted, for an hour lost! 

And if a single hour may be so rich in blessing, what then must time itself be worth, lying before you as a shoreless ocean? 

But the entire blessedness of the gift will come to the believing heart only in the kingdom to come, where love rules, which made the time.


This is an important message?

People may commit what is called an unspeakably deadly sin on your plane because of great unselfish love, one to the other. 

Well, they will have to bear the consequences of the wrongdoing, but the absorbing affection the one had for the other will go a long way towards shortening the discipline.

The same with many other acts, which do not stand so much in the limelight of public opinion.

Not many sins are committed from absolutely unworthy motives, there is generally a spark of affection for some other person mixed up with it. 

All this talk about the horrible wickedness of sin is true to a certain extent, but the righteous Pharisee is very apt to confuse the sin and the sinner, and to refuse to distinguish between the two.

When our Master was last on the earth, one of the most important commands He gave to the people was this, Judge not, that meant because they could not know all the circumstances that led a person to commit some unworthy act, and would, therefore, be incapable of giving a fair opinion.

There is much of that kind of judging on the earth, only it is called criticism, a milder expression of the same thing.

All of you must learn to appreciate the real meaning of the word charity. You do not know how much the spoken thought can influence another person, or what harm or good it may, and can do. But we know it here, and the message for you today is to learn to think and speak kindly of others. 

If they cannot speak kindly, at least, let them be silent. This is an important message, and one that is very badly needed.

―The Witness

One message that is very badly needed?

People may commit what is called an unspeakably deadly sin on your plane because of great unselfish love, one to the other. 

Well, they will have to bear the consequences of the wrongdoing, but the absorbing affection the one had for the other will go a long way towards shortening the discipline.

The same with many other acts, which do not stand so much in the limelight of public opinion.

Not many sins are committed from absolutely unworthy motives, there is generally a spark of affection for some other person mixed up with it. 

All this talk about the horrible wickedness of sin is true to a certain extent, but the righteous Pharisee is very apt to confuse the sin and the sinner, and to refuse to distinguish between the two.

When our Master was last on the earth, one of the most important commands He gave to the people was this, Judge not, that meant because they could not know all the circumstances that led a person to commit some unworthy act, and would, therefore, be incapable of giving a fair opinion.

There is much of that kind of judging on the earth, only it is called criticism, a milder expression of the same thing.

All of you must learn to appreciate the real meaning of the word charity. You do not know how much the spoken thought can influence another person, or what harm or good it may, and can do. But we know it here, and the message for you today is to learn to think and speak kindly of others. 

If they cannot speak kindly, at least, let them be silent. This is an important message, and one that is very badly needed.

―The Witness

Silence over unkindness?

People may commit what is called an unspeakably deadly sin on your plane because of great unselfish love, one to the other. 

Well, they will have to bear the consequences of the wrongdoing, but the absorbing affection the one had for the other will go a long way towards shortening the discipline.

The same with many other acts, which do not stand so much in the limelight of public opinion.

Not many sins are committed from absolutely unworthy motives, there is generally a spark of affection for some other person mixed up with it. 

All this talk about the horrible wickedness of sin is true to a certain extent, but the righteous Pharisee is very apt to confuse the sin and the sinner, and to refuse to distinguish between the two.

When our Master was last on the earth, one of the most important commands He gave to the people was this, Judge not, that meant because they could not know all the circumstances that led a person to commit some unworthy act, and would, therefore, be incapable of giving a fair opinion.

There is much of that kind of judging on the earth, only it is called criticism, a milder expression of the same thing.

All of you must learn to appreciate the real meaning of the word charity. You do not know how much the spoken thought can influence another person, or what harm or good it may, and can do. But we know it here, and the message for you today is to learn to think and speak kindly of others. 

If they cannot speak kindly, at least, let them be silent. This is an important message, and one that is very badly needed.

―The Witness

Understand the limits of your perspective?

People may commit what is called an unspeakably deadly sin on your plane because of great unselfish love, one to the other. 

Well, they will have to bear the consequences of the wrongdoing, but the absorbing affection the one had for the other will go a long way towards shortening the discipline.

The same with many other acts, which do not stand so much in the limelight of public opinion.

Not many sins are committed from absolutely unworthy motives, there is generally a spark of affection for some other person mixed up with it. 

All this talk about the horrible wickedness of sin is true to a certain extent, but the righteous Pharisee is very apt to confuse the sin and the sinner, and to refuse to distinguish between the two.

When our Master was last on the earth, one of the most important commands He gave to the people was this, Judge not, that meant because they could not know all the circumstances that led a person to commit some unworthy act, and would, therefore, be incapable of giving a fair opinion.

There is much of that kind of judging on the earth, only it is called criticism, a milder expression of the same thing.

All of you must learn to appreciate the real meaning of the word charity. You do not know how much the spoken thought can influence another person, or what harm or good it may, and can do. But we know it here, and the message for you today is to learn to think and speak kindly of others. 

If they cannot speak kindly, at least, let them be silent. This is an important message, and one that is very badly needed.

―The Witness

Separate the sin from the sinner?

People may commit what is called an unspeakably deadly sin on your plane because of great unselfish love, one to the other. 

Well, they will have to bear the consequences of the wrongdoing, but the absorbing affection the one had for the other will go a long way towards shortening the discipline.

The same with many other acts, which do not stand so much in the limelight of public opinion.

Not many sins are committed from absolutely unworthy motives, there is generally a spark of affection for some other person mixed up with it. 

All this talk about the horrible wickedness of sin is true to a certain extent, but the righteous Pharisee is very apt to confuse the sin and the sinner, and to refuse to distinguish between the two.

When our Master was last on the earth, one of the most important commands He gave to the people was this, Judge not, that meant because they could not know all the circumstances that led a person to commit some unworthy act, and would, therefore, be incapable of giving a fair opinion.

There is much of that kind of judging on the earth, only it is called criticism, a milder expression of the same thing.

All of you must learn to appreciate the real meaning of the word charity. You do not know how much the spoken thought can influence another person, or what harm or good it may, and can do. But we know it here, and the message for you today is to learn to think and speak kindly of others. 

If they cannot speak kindly, at least, let them be silent. This is an important message, and one that is very badly needed.

―The Witness

Never cease from loving?

Never cease from loving.

Jesus said a good deal about love. Look up what He said and live it. Love God by pouring yourself away. Love your fellows by giving them all you possess of light and truth.

Love, LOVE, for her own blessed sake. Such love will bring you nearer heaven.

Reflection Nebula – NASA and The Hubble Heritage Team (STScI)

What did Jesus actually say about love?

Never cease from loving.

Jesus said a good deal about love. Look up what He said and live it. Love God by pouring yourself away. Love your fellows by giving them all you possess of light and truth.

Love, LOVE, for her own blessed sake. Such love will bring you nearer heaven.

Reflection Nebula – NASA and The Hubble Heritage Team (STScI)

Strive to live the life the Master did?

Strive to live the life the Master did―the humble, loving, self-denying life that leads to the summit of your humanity.

Julia set, a fractal | Solkoll/Wikimedia Commons

What does it mean to live a life of virtue?

Strive to live the life the Master did―the humble, loving, self-denying life that leads to the summit of your humanity.

Julia set, a fractal | Solkoll/Wikimedia Commons

What is an astral body?

The astral body is capable of separation from the physical, so that it visits loved ones either on astral, or physical planes during dreams of exaltation, being meanwhile connected with the physical body through a sort of umbilical cord, which being severed results in physical death.

The astral leaves the body during sleep—Rad el Baluvar—Creative Commons Attribution-Share Alike 3.0 Unported

Wasting Time on God?

I don't want to believe, I want to know. 

—Paulo Bittencourt

Mandela Effect?

A journey into a wondrous land of imagination. Next stop, the Twilight Zone!

—Rod Serling

Rime of the Ancient Mariner?

Water, water, everywhere,

And all the boards did shrink

Water, water, everywhere—

Nor any drop to drink.

—Samuel Taylor Coleridge (1834)

The Cynic's Word Book?

Brain—An apparatus with which we think that we think.

—Ambrose Bierce's The Devil's Dictionary

Will you walk into my parlour?

Will you walk into my parlour? said the spider to the fly. 

—The Spider and the Fly

What's in a name?

What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other word would smell as sweet.

—Act II, scene ii of William Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet

Reason in Common Sense?

Only the Dead have seen the end of War. 

—George Santayana, The Life of Reason (1953)

And Justice For All?

You're out of order! You're out of order! The whole trial is out of order! They're out of order! Character of Arthur Kirkland in And Justice for All in response to Judge Rayford saying, Mr Kirkland, you are out of order.

Nice Mess?

Well, here's another nice mess you've gotten me into! 

—The Laurel-Hardy Murder Case, Another Fine Mess (ca 1930s)

Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar?

A million surplus Maggies are willing to bear the yoke—

And a woman is only a woman, but a good cigar is a smoke.

—Rudyard Kipling, The Betrothed

Crisis? What crisis?

Crisis? What crisis? This was a headline from The Sun (11 January 1979) referring to British Prime Minister James Callaghan's, I promise you that if you look at it from outside, and perhaps you're taking rather a parochial view at the moment, I don't think that other people in the world would share the view that there is mounting chaos.

Thoughts on the Cause of the Present Discontents?

When bad men combine, the good must associate—else they will fall one by one, an unpitied sacrifice in a contemptible struggle.

—Edmund Burke

Mourning Bride?

Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned

Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned.

—William Congreve, The Mourning Bride, 1697

I am not a crook?

And I think, too, that I can say that in my years of public life, that I welcome this kind of examination because people have gotta know whether or not their President's a crook. Well, I'm not a crook. I've earned everything I've got. 

—Richard Nixon

Gild the Lily?

To gild refined gold, to paint the lily.

—William Shakespeare (The Life and Death of King John, Act IV, Scene II, line 13

Peaceful release into absolute quiet?

The rest is silence.

—William Shakespeare, (Hamlet)

Where did Play It Again, Sam come from?

You played it for her, you can play it for me. If she can stand to listen to it, I can. Play it.

—Humphrey Bogart (Casablanca)

Winter of our discontent?

Now is the winter of our discontent

Made glorious summer by this son of York.

—William Shakespeare (Richard III)

Look fear in the face?

You gain strength and courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.

—Eleanor Roosevelt

What is the quote about facing fear?

You gain strength and courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.

—Eleanor Roosevelt

How do you fill up and live?

She read books as one would breathe air to fill up and live.

―Annie Dillard

What are astral bodies formed of?


About that.

—Elbert Hubbard

Human and Corporeal Afterlife?

Heaven is a Continuation, Not an Erasure

Rejecting the cold, disembodied eternity preached by traditional grim theology,  heaven is envisioned as a vibrant, corporeal home where human identity, intellect, affection, and personal tastes are fully preserved and elevated.

The Domestic and Social Afterlife

Heaven mirrors the best of earthly existence—featuring homes, meaningful work, continuous learning, and joyous reunions. It is fundamentally a social realm built on community and uninterrupted love rather than endless, passive contemplation.


There Is a Gate That Stands Ajar

 

And when my angel guide went up, 
He left the pearly gates ajar.

The afterlife is depicted as intimately close to our earthly lives. The boundary between those here and those gone before is porous, bridged entirely by enduring affection and faith.

Comfort Over Dogma

God intends heaven to be a source of immediate emotional and psychological solace for the broken-hearted, prioritizing divine empathy over frightening theological distance.

THE GATES AJAR by Elizabeth Stuart Phelps?

To my father, whose life, like a perfume from beyond the Gates, penetrates every life which approaches it, the readers of this little book will owe whatever pleasant thing they may find within its pages.

—E. S. P.

Andover, 22 October 1865

What is that to us?

If the Master will that we should be about His Father's business, what is that to us.

Inversion of Reality?

The days are stealing away and lessening one by one, and still Faith plays about the room, though very softly now, and still the cheery sunshine shimmers in, and still we talk with clasping hands, less often and more pleasantly. Morning and noon and evening come and go—the snow drifts down and the rain falls softly—clouds form and break and hurry past the windows—shadows melt and lights are shattered, and little rainbows are prisoned by the icicles that hang from the eaves. I sit and watch them, and watch the sick-lamp flicker in the night, and watch the blue morning crawl over the hills—and the old words are stealing down my thought—That is the substance, this the shadow—that the reality, this the dream.

Going around a corner?

Such pleasant talks! We are quite brave to speak of anything, since we know that what is to be is best just so, and since we fear no parting. I tell her that Faith and I will soon learn to shut our eyes and think we see her, and try to make it almost the same, for she will never be very far away, will she? And then she shakes her head smiling, for it pleases her, and she kisses me softly. Then we dream of how it will all be, and how we shall love and try to please each other quite as much as now. It will be like going around a corner, don't you. You will know that I am there see? she says. all the while, though hidden, and that if you call me I shall hear. Then we talk of Faith, and of how I shall comfort her—that I shall teach her this, and guard her from that, and how I shall talk with her about heaven and her mother.

How to completely lose yourself in a vibrant afternoon of make-believe and hide-and-seek?

As the light began to fall level on the floor, I threw the book aside,-being at the end of a volume—and, Mary Ann having exhausted her attractions, I surrendered unconditionally to the little maiden. She took me up garret, and down cellar, on top of the woodpile, and into the apple trees—I fathomed the mysteries of Old Man's Castle and Still Palm—I was her grandmother, I was her baby, I was a rabbit, I was a chestnut horse, I was a watch dog, I was a mild-tempered giant, I was a bear, warranted not to eat little girls—I was a roaring hippopotamus and a canary, I was Jeff Davis and I was Moses in the bulrushes, and of what I was the time faileth me to tell. It comes over me with a curious, mingled sense of the ludicrous that I should have spent the afternoon like a baby and almost as happily, laughing out with the child, past and future forgotten, the tremendous risks of  I spy absorbing all my present.

Not for all of us?

We were wondering today where it will be—I mean heaven. It is impossible to do more than wonder Auntie said, though we are explicitly told that there will be new heavens and a new earth, which seems, if anything can be taken literally in the Bible, to point to this world as the future home of at least some of us. Not for all of us, of course? I don't feel sure. I know that somebody spent his valuable time in estimating that all the people who have lived and died upon the earth would cover it, alive or buried, twice over—but I know that somebody else claims with equal solemnity to have discovered that they could all be buried in the State of Pennsylvania! But it would be of little consequence if we could not all find room here, since there must be other provision for us. Why? Certainly there is a place in which we are promised that we shall be with Christ, this world being yet the great theatre of human life and battleground of Satan—no place, certainly, in which to confine a happy soul without prospect of release. The Spiritualistic notion of circles of dead friends revolving over us is to me intolerable. I want my husband with me when I need him, but I hope he has a place to be happy in, which is out of this woeful world. The old astronomical idea, stars around a sun, and systems around a centre, and that centre the Throne of God, is not an unreasonable one. Isaac Taylor, among his various conjectures, inclines, I fancy, to suppose that the sun of each system is the heaven of that system. Though the glory of God may be more directly and impressively exhibited in one place than in another, we may live in different planets, and some of us, after its destruction and renovation, on this same dear old, happy and miserable, loved and maltreated earth. I hope I shall be one of them. I should like to come back and build me a beautiful home in Kansas—I mean in what was Kansas—among the happy people and the familiar, transfigured spots where John and I worked for God so long together. That—with my dear Lord to see and speak with everyday would be Heaven our Home. There will be no days, then? There will be succession of time. There may not be alternations of twenty-four hours dark or light, but I use with thee an earthly language as the wife said in that beautiful little  Awakening  of Therrmin's. Do you remember it? Do read it over, if you haven't read it lately. As to our coming back here, there is an echo to Peter's assertion, in the idea of a world under a curse, destroyed and regenerated—the atonement of Christ reaching, with something more than poetic force, the very sands of the earth which he trod with bleeding feet to make himself its Saviour. That makes me feel don't you see? what a taint there is in sin. If dumb dust is to have such awful cleansing, what must be needed for you and me?

These were meant for happy days?

No Greek and Hebrew original no polished dogma, no link in his stereotyped logic, not one of his eloquent sermons on the future state, came to his relief. These were meant for happy days. They rang cold as steel upon the warm needs of an afflicted man. Brought face to face, and sharply, with the blank heaven of his belief, he stood up from before his dead, and groped about it, and cried out against it in the bitterness of his soul.