Are the dead in heaven or asleep?

What strange experiences one has out here! 

I rather dread to go back into the world where it will be so dull for me for a long time. 

Can I exchange this freedom and vivid life for a long period of somnolence? 

Afterwards to suck a bottle and learn the multiplication table and Greek and Latin verbs? 

I suppose I must, but not yet. 

—“X”