What do you think it to be?

I found myself with a spiritual form and in a very active state indeed. 

Now shortly after coming here [in the world of spirits], I felt very much as a person would on visiting a foreign land―one he thought he knew all about, supposing he well understood the manners and customs of its people, and he had made up his mind precisely what he should do―how he would live―all the particulars of his life lay in detail before the eye of his mind. 

When he arrived in that country, it was not at all as he had thought it to be, but entirely different, excepting some few points. 

That person would be obliged to adjust himself to the country as it really was, and to the people as he found them.

Well, that was just as it was with me. 

It was not as I thought it to be. 

This is all the apology I have to offer for not doing as one would have expected me to do.