Sunday, 29 January 2017

Dweller on the Threshold

While experiencing no recoveries, I have seen in part what I have called I. And O the horror of it! I had but a glimpse or two for although knowing that it was possible to see all, I realised that it was dangerous, in my nervous condition, to try to bear the strain of a full revelation. Since that awful experience, my whole outlook and inlook have changed. I see mankindmyself includedthrough different eye-perceptions.

The experience which was so appalling to you was a momentary glimpse of the Dweller on the Threshold. This is the condensed essence as it were of all the old personalities that you have used in other lives and have not yet conquered, a sort of a composite of all the leftovers from each life. At the time of laying aside the old garment (physical body), there is always a great deal of evil that has not been spiritualised, and this is entitised and remains upon the kamalokic plane until the Ego who gave it birth grows strong enough to conquer it once for all. It attaches itself to the Ego at each new incarnation and becomes the tempter of the personalitya personal devil to a certain extent but only because it is something that you have created which is seeking expression through you. It is a personal devil just as the Higher Self may be said to be a personal God.

Before final liberation, this monster must be consciously met and conquered, i. e., the evil that is entitised must be redeemed and spiritualised by seeing in oneself the faults that live in this Dweller and overcoming them one by one. It is called the Dweller on the Threshold because when one is determined to live a spiritual life this thing stands at the threshold to be redeemed before the neophyte can go on. Very often just before taking an advanced step upward and inward, or passing an inner initiation, this Dweller becomes visible to the disciple. It is dreadful because, being created by yourself, there is an inner conviction that you, like Frankenstein, are looking into the face of a monster of your own creation and you are appalled at the sight of your handiwork. It is only the brave and the steadfast who can look in the face and defy this Dweller in full consciousness of their power of the Christ to conquer and redeem it. Until redeemed it is ever with you, seen or unseen. If you have ever read Bulwer Lytton's Zanoni you will remember that the Dweller was more dangerous when not seen. It is a good thing to see it, for then your courage is stimulated to conquer it.

Do not be discouraged, for not only do you have a Dweller, but you also have a Guardian of the Threshold. This is built up or created by you out of all your aspirations and struggles to overcome. Every time you turn your thoughts toward spiritual things you strengthen this Guardian and withdraw life from the Dweller. This is why it fights against your spiritual growth; it is fighting for its life. Every fault faced and overcome adds an arrow to the quiver of your Guardian. This is the meaning of the passage in Light on the Path which saysStand aside in the coming battle, and though thou fightest be not thou the warrior. Look for the warrior and let him fight in thee. Obey him not as though he were a general, but as though he were thyself, and his spoken words were the utterance of thy secret desires, for he is thyself, yet infinitely wiser and stronger than thyself. The warrior is your higher principles together with the sum total of your aspirations, etc., which fights for you. Recognise that the evil is but transitory; that it lives only until you arise in your might, accept it as your own and determine to redeem and transmute the foul dross into pure gold. Remember, nothing is to be killed. Thou shalt not kill means more than the surface interpretation generally given to it, for within every evil thing there is the germ of good. Find then that germ, and water it with love and patience until it grows and transforms the evil into good.

You are quite right not to expect or count upon psychic experiences, but when they come meet them boldly and find the lesson in them. Remember always that you have the power of the Christ to conquer everything that comes to you. Use that power and do not fear.

Letters from the Teacher, Teachings of the Order of the 15, transcribed by Harriette Augusta Curtiss and F. Homer Curtiss, Curtiss Book Company, Los Angeles, California, 1913